nothing but a tribute

"feelings pervate me
that i try to scatter
but since it comes to nothing
they don't really matter
the polyphonic voice
that beckons in my head...
it must be quieted since
my place here is dead."
-Jer.Weber

yes, he has great lyrics, and he's my brother. for life.

i went to see my friend shane play tonight (and some other bands) at a benefit show. i gave a whole $5 to helping the senior towle-ians go on their senior trip. i tried to get my other friend matt, who was manning the money box to let me in for free...but to no avail. instead i gave up and made him draw me an awesome stamp on my right hand.

they'll begin leaving tomorrow and i'll be left at home to study for the SATS and apply to more colleges.
whoop-dee-doo.

I'm having the worst freaking pain of my life.

Address it to J.Weber, J.Weber, and K.Weber, please.

Happy Birthday, Brothers and Mom!

i love you all dearly.

I had the wonderful pleasure this afternoon of singing to a great big bunch of old people.

I'm officially one of those crazy people that has every kind of blog. One of those people that has to have a part in everything. That's saying something, i know it...perhaps i am living too much through the computer. -and i say this on a blog! blogspot though, i feel is very different from facebook or myspace or xanga. at least for me it is. i'm more personal on blogspot than any of those, mostly because i don't have a full community of blogspotters around me, so i feel that i can be more explicit with what i say on here.

you know what i wish? i wish i could take a writing class on the literary works of J.D. Salinger. i think that would be perfect.

i can't believe this is my senior year in highschool. when i think about the SATs, and how i'll probably do horribly on them and then not get accepted to any colleges, it makes me get this horrible feeling of anxiousness in my stomache. i hate being anxious, it's one of the worst things to feel like. it's like, if you could only stop thinking about the future and worrying about it, then you could have fun now. if only.
man, i don't even know what colleges i'm going to apply to yet. i'll probably apply to Delaware (just because it's so close, but i don't want to go there), Covenant, Carson Newman...but other than that, i don't really know. i just want to go to a college that will be good for me, you know? a place God wants me to be at...but i have no idea what he wants. i need to pray more, and get direction. that's what i need.