This is my room.

take a look! it's really messy though, i'm warning you, and it doesn't look too stellar or anything.
some of them are sideways--haha. i couldn't get 'em to rotate.

sometimes i feel i cannot make my posts interesting unless i include a picture or video. ?

to my right there is a weight watcher's bottle of orange soda (or should we call it, orange puke!) that is three quarters of the way drunk. i wonder who did that. probably some poor, unforunate soul who made the discovery of it's true intentions in mid-gulp.

why is it that on every other time of the year, do i have the urge to eat those little, sugary valentine's day candy hearts, but not on valentine's day? they will reside in my top drawer for fully six months before i acquire even the slightest craving that will induce me to eat them.

my ears are beginning to hurt from these clip-ons. i would take them off if i didn't think i looked so cool in them. it's not like there is even anyone around me! it's as if i think there is a hidden camera somewhere in this cluttered basement, recording me. me, being stupid and silly.

i have taken them off now. ashamed of myself.

i have taken to drawing trees lately, and pictures of people looking at objects that are symbolic of what they are thinking of, or of things they are subconciously trying to find in their lives. again, ?

this is a very identifying stage in my life. this whole year has been. so, if you ask how i am doing, that is probably what i am wanting to answer you with, but i'll most likely just say, "fine."

now, this is all very personal (haha, well, some of it anyway), so don't go chattin' it around to all your friends and moms. and don't over-analyze it. not that you would, i'm no Holden Caulfield or anything.

i love that name. i think i will name something/someone sometime in my life, it.

Introducing: Yael Naim

Brett and I were watching T.V., and the new Apple commercial came on to tell about their new crazi-thin Macbook, and a pretty, catchy piano started to play. I watched, but more listened with delight to this happy melody.
How exactly music has that incredible potential to evoke such happiness or thoughtfulness in people, is beyond me. It is something I have often thought about.
So, I said, "Brett, who is this singing?"
And he said, "I don't know...but I think she's Isreali or something."
And I said, "Listen, Son, you better find out for me, 'cause you're smart with stuff like that."
And he said, "Like heck I will!"

So I found out who she was from Hannah A.M. Oliver.
Watch the vid, it's really...well, nevermind. Just watch it.

Carson-Newman Update No. 1

it was nice...

tenessee is pretty goober-ish, and i can barely stand it...SO glad i am home.
but i'm not holding it against the college, they can't really help the location, i suppose.

so, it was darn stellar, man, but only made my college decision much, much harder.

P.S. did i mention before how i would pat myself on the back (if i did that) for the way i picked out these lovely colors on my blog?
no. i think not.
sometimes am proud.
mostly about my blog.
and i think
that
is okay.
to be proud like that.

I'm leaving for the weekend...

have a lovely one.

Carson-Newman, here I come!

do you see the ugly blue wallpaper?

yes...well...look again, my friend. it's completely gone.
i need to take pictures of the new and improved...
maybe i will
do
that
there
stuff
right
now.

man, this cover is the best.
hello, my favorite band, sufjan and i both love you.

It's a Wednesday, and it definitely feels like it.

So, i'm not sure what to write...all i know is that i want to write something. i mean, who wants to listen to nothing, really?
because that's probably all i'll say in this post...nothing. absolutely nothing. well, maybe i'll say something. it just probably won't be very much worth your time. ha!

so...i've been having some interesting thoughts, mounting excitements, and also some apprehensions.
i'm excited about going to college. REALLY excited. just thinking about what things might be like for me next year and stuff, being able to go away (hopefully), and stuff. but then i'm kind of scared. will i make good friends? will people like me there? will i get crazy homesick?
will i keep in touch with my good friends here?
what will it be like.

i learned how to play the B minor chord yesterday on the guitar. i like how that one sounds. it's also very hard for me to play.

...catching myself on thoughts that are wrong, thoughts that are assuming and arrogant. i don't think i do always catch myself when i'm thinking wrong things. why, i don't know. but i believe it's important to realize this, so i can work on it.

i've been wondering what people see in me, or if they see much in me. constantly my thoughts are bad, i am guilty of so many things. thank Jesus Christ for His blood and mercy.

i can see alot of life in you, yes,
i can see alot of life...

Today

...i almost cursed out a bird. really badly....but then i remembered that i might wake up someone if i did. heh. see how considerate i am?

...got discouraged about my room. there's no more happy joy in tearing off the wall paper. i almost cursed out that wall too. "tear down the wall, aren't we all? the opposite of war isn't peace..." -good old Mark from Rent.

...i am, due to the dreadfully difficult wallpaper, wearing frumpy sweat pants and a beater.

...had two "angels" sent to me by my mother. they took the form of Ryan and Sean.

...i am in a bad mood.

...i had breakfast with amy and beth.

...i met amy's new roommate, and liked her.

...i borrowed a chic flick.

...i will watch that chic flick.

...james and shane visited. i wasn't even excited.

...i say, "hang correct capitalization in sentences!"

...i am, needless to say, down.

vague, i know.

i feel...weird.